Saturday, May 20, 2006
You CALLED yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feelin similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually
I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry
So what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven'tgot a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive
"Do you lash out and say: "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
When the music fadesAnd all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itselfIs not what
You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about YouIt's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord for the thing I’ve made it
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
"What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the one who made you start?"
mortality
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them? Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
.....we’ve both known this can’t be. We’ve known this from the start. That doesn’t mean it isn’t true. It is. It just cannot be. I want to know that you are alive somewhere thinking of me from time to time. I want to know that there is more to this life....
"Why does loving you feel so wrong?"....